My reflection to contemplate

lately i've been learning the ways of living in the middle age.. life is throwing things my way that sometimes it feels like it is just not making any sense! the annoying,nagging feeling of "its just not enough" to suffice my needs of attention and hunger for learning lifes lessons. i have come to realize that somehow i am still lucky.. considering the things that i have went through lately. the heart is beating the shit out of my head which in terms make me "senseless" in more ways than one..in the dire moments of self pity and just literally out of this world stupidity.. i have come to realize that in order to live we have to die a little bit..given the chance to experience "devastation" i have learned that expectations is a critical part of life. we expect too much out of everything we do or someone were with.. the "what" and "whys" are the usual senseless things that we focus on.. "mad,sad,disatisfied.. instead of glad,happy,thankful.." life has taught me to take a step back and realize.. life is teaching me the ways of balancing the steps..most of you ask me.." why do you always write about love and heartaches? " well we are all lovers. we were born with it.. that urge to find that special someone who will take us to the beginings of forever. most of us has gone thru heartaches. you can deny it all you want but surely you will come to realize it is true. to my undying devotion in life,love and experiences.. cheers for we are all students of life..