hope..

lately i've been thinkin on how things will be if i wasnt so stubborn. I've been debating myself and asking i might still be in the best relationship i ever had if it wasnt for me being so paranoid or am i? i dont really know.. i dont second guess most of the time i just go with what i think is right at the moment.. it's instinct its a human function that we all have.. we sometimes get carried away and we cant control our emotions.. that night will always remain in my memories.. where i bravely said that i would turn my back on her and on everything that we ever had.. turn away from the plans and our future.. just because in my mind it is over.. i know somehow that she will be better.. and somehow that she will find the "one" that she will be happily smiling while mr. right is danicng with her on her favorite song.. perfect isnt it? but thats not the case.. i know lately she's hurting.. and i know lately that she's been in rough situations.. she had made bad choices.. man it wasnt suppose to be like that! she's suppose to be having a better time than me.. but i guess we all make mistakes sometimes.. and we learn.. maybe she will grow from the experience.. and maybe somehow she'll do better after... but most of all.. im hoping she will remember.. those words that i said.. "i will sacrifice my happiness so you could have yours"..  and if ever you stumble upon this little cyberspace scribble.. I wish you well...